Maybe i shouldnt look forward for the day to come , maybe i shouldnt . With the warning you gave me , i shouldnt looking forward on that . So silly of me , believing there's miracle . Believing that you will change for me with the effort i tryin on in . Trying my best to please you with ways i never did b4 , jus hoping you could be nice . Living underground making me despite myself . Numbing myself by making myself drunk . Knowing that im still gonna face it the next day , but at least it numb my heart for a shortwhile. Every emotional i had i can only keep to myself ,Posting on to my walls and blog . Other than that i got no ways to go to . I'm doing all is just becos i cherish YOU .