不开心的我是没有人能理解的。我无法表现我自己的心情，也无法做我想做的事。我觉得好累好累。好想悄悄的离开这一切的我，真的好无奈 ！

我认输了，输的彻底。我以为我够坚强的好好走这个没有你的生活。可是我错了。只希望你过的比从前快乐，我就满足了。好好照顾你自己和家人。告别了。

The urge , the pain . The confuse , that blank mind is something you could never understand or even feel it . As you're not me . Im trying hard i really do . But basically i cant even made up my mind . The tears that shed in my heart you will never see it , you will never feel it . Maybe its the best choice i have ever made . So i shall keep and close everything to me .

Just a misunderstanding msg could cos me losing everything that i treasure and is precious to me . I didnt explain cos im tired of explainin . But i guess you have make up your mind . Its gone its all GONE. But im still thankful to you for the past 168 days . I wont force anything anymore . Hope you could be better and live better , ILY .

There is nothing i can do . Since your decision is make i shall respect you . All i can say is "No one can predict what will happen next . All you can do is Stay Strong .! Move On and learn from the mistake ."
Remember you once told me that you never blame me for anything as you know i have done my best ? But why cant you tell it to yourself ? You have done your very best as well . It just that you didnt make it . That all i can say to you . The rest is up to yourself . Hopefully you can go thru this miserable stage strongly .

也许是时候我应该做一个决定了吧。要不就是坚持下去，不然就是把一切都放掉。从新的过一个人的生活。我是真的不知道该如何做。我知道如果这一条路走下去我会很难受，会很痛苦。不过至少我也不需要过着那心惊胆跳的生活吧。我以用我的全力去配合你，包容你了。也许我还是失败了吧。

我从没忘记我们是怎么开始，也没忘记我是如何的爱上你。

我不后悔我的选择，也希望我能一直的继续爱着你。

我只希望你能对我，就像我如何的对待着你。

你对我所做的一切我都依然的牢牢记在心里。

也希望我所做的一切，你能感受的到。

14062011 。

我不想再过着每天都躲在被里偷偷哭泣的生活。 我只想做我自己！
我也不想过着被人控制的日子。因为我是我自己，我有我选择的权利。
我不喜欢那种被抛弃，被冷落的感觉。感到好无助，好无奈。
不需要每天的让步，也不用每天的迁就。
只需要偶尔小小的关心关怀，就心满意足了。

Can anyone in thiss world tell me , what is everything happenin for ? i really dunno .
It just like not a every good or nice year to go on . Everything is just not right ?
What going on .? Actually i should be asking myself , "What are you thinkin ? Yixin"
I really need to set a aim for myself , but not rotting or thinking so much .
And to frens out there , im not emo-ing ok !!!! I just confuse with thing happening .

Im crazy over my new heels , even i have not started wearing it . But i love it ttm .!! 

Have a great time with my love this few day . I hope this good time would last.. 

Even we didnt do anything much . But just having him with me is the pleasure im having . =)

这是怎么了。为何事情又变到这样了呢？

如果说你是想要放弃这段感情，就让我知道。不要如此这样的伤害我。

我对你是用如何的心态，如何的对待 ，你应该比任何人都还要清楚。

Why will choose to hurt at this period of time ? Do you think im really enjoy myself ytd night ?

Do you think im having fun like nowhere ? I thought i can make it as well , i thought i can jus have fun .

But i still didnt make & im fail to make it . I'm shed-ing over you in the end .

I have alot of question in my mind wish that i would like to ask you , but i dont dare to .

You have make me fear of you . Fear to talk , fear to move.

Cause i wont know when will the next bomb will explode.

难道这还不够吗？

What going wrong lately ? Why have you been so cold to me?

I dunt know what you really want , Ppl are telling my that im giving in far too much to you .

Which make you treating me this way ,  i told them it ok . 

But do you really wanna prove them this is the way you are really taking granted for ?

It is just a few day b4 my day to come . Do you really have to do that ?

Im just lost in nowhere .

有时回想着你是用如何的心态来对待我？回想着早期和你在一起的那种快乐。

读回这和你的信息，返回着和你的照片。我偷偷的掉泪了。

知道你所做的一切，可是有不想去问你什么。是因为这是我对你的信任。

也许我是象你所说的 “你想太多”。 可是，是因为我很珍惜我们的这一段感情。

我可以忍受你所有的一切，那你呢？

我不需要一段轰轰烈烈的爱情，只要一心一意的对待，和关心。

这两天来我是真的感到开心。你带给我了，许多和你的第一次。

是在这四个月来我所没体验到的第一次。

从来没有想过我们能维持多旧，只想过我珍惜一切。希望你也如此。

I remember clearly and trust in your words . You told me you was just making use of her , fooling with her . Now you have fool enough & its time to come back . Remember the words you say to me at west coast?

' When the day you leave me , suddenly you never control me i feel uncomfortable'

' I leave is bcos im afraid that i will bring you burden '

' Congrats to you , my mum n daughter have slowly accept you '

And many more .

After days you was pissed by her action remember , you told me she is just a bitch .? just a PLK?

Now everything is enough le bah , time to come back . Loves , 14/06/2011 .

* dick dick dick *

Can you simply heard that .? It my heart thats bleeding .

Could you stop it by stop yourself from hurting me any longer ?

I cant handle all this thing everytime . I choose to trust you and myself .

But why ? why ? why? Why you rather choose to hurt me ?

Action speaks louder than words . You once told me loudly , " 我做东西对的起天地良心 "

But what now ? Secret hidden behide all those lock ?

There is nothing im able speaks out anymore . But only this short sentence for you .

" Walk a right path , Make a wise choice. "

Going Crazy , there is alot of stuff that im looking forward to do or have it .

And it being long while since i last bloggin. Today was cock up la .

Only manage to enter ofiice at 10.45am when i suppose to start at 9 am.

Im stuck outside the office for 1 hour plus with the freaking hot weather .!

KAOS .

Thing is between us are getting slightly much better , hope it will improve even much better .

And not get worst . Nothing much to blog oso -.-

Sometimes i realise i got no right to say others at all.
In life everything is changing along the time pass. And of cos so do a human as well.
At times i dont even know what i want for my life .
Dont know who is the right one who guide me thru
I plead for the time to arrive, i dont want to go on living with fear .

Maybe i shouldnt look forward for the day to come , maybe i shouldnt . With the warning you gave me , i shouldnt looking forward on that . So silly of me , believing there's miracle . Believing that you will change for me with the effort i tryin on in . Trying my best to please you with ways i never did b4 , jus hoping you could be nice . Living underground making me despite myself . Numbing myself by making myself drunk . Knowing that im still gonna face it the next day , but at least it numb my heart for a shortwhile. Every emotional i had i can only keep to myself ,Posting on to my walls and blog . Other than that i got no ways to go to . I'm doing all is just becos i cherish YOU .

Just wished that you could be a lil more understanding to me isnt so hard for you .? It all the pressure from those girl ard that had gave me , not me who want to find trouble with you . Cant you understand .? I feel insecure understand .? Dunt wish to talk about it anymore . It been bothering me for days .

Well , new job so far so good . But i need to buy more clothes for work . Sick looking at those few clothes i have been wearing this few days . =( Pay faster come .!! i need clothes .!!! AWWWWWW~~ Sickening .!

I'M party like a rockstar.! Weets . Going back to normal life . Party at the right time. Sleep at Right hour .! Ytd KENNY bday . ! Happy Birthday .!!
Hhaha went hollywood with huihui . And happen to see them came in . Hahas . Nothing much that i would like to say .
Happy Birthday .!!!!

To :
" J.G.J.M , I care that why im so kanjiong n sensitive over thing ard you . Hope you understand alright .? Buay Tahan you this idiot .! JOOP ~~~ "