Im trying hard , trying every hard to get over all this thinking . I dont want to go on thinkin and making myself miserable. I have to go on strong . Please tell me what im thinking was wrong .!

Tonight will be my last night at NANA. I will miss you guys . I really do treasure the care , concern , laughter and outing with have together. I will keep all the memories will have together in mind. I LOVE YOU GUYS , I LOVE CLUB NANA.!!
But please dont make me mao tonight ok mai .?? I know you all love me too..

I want the usual me ~

Few days back before everything happen , PPL say im cheerful . This few days PPL say im emo-ing . Well, i shouldnt be emo-ing , instead i should be the old cheerful me. no stress no everything .Since the gap is already there , the thing has already happen . i shall not bother and let it go. Dont let it crop in my heart and make myself miserable . ~ NEO YIXIN , YOU CAN MAKE IT .~

This is not i wanted.!!

Trim my hair ytd b4 i start work . Like it ttm . It feel better. =) Thanks Juney .!!

"If this is the outcome will be , i rather i leave . You two will still remain the same but not me . thing is different for me now. I will give in my ways, i will choose to leave. All i wanted is just to stay happy but not thinking all this .! THANKS .!!"

At times things should just keep in heart , but not letting it out . It hurt with the outcome if is bad . It just like how im feeling now . It hurt . I just dunno what should i say other than sorry .
I just feel like giving up on myself .! Giving up on everything . Im still young i know . I still got a long way to go , i know . But i jus simply dun wish to get all this shit anymore . No more. If im gonna choose in between , i rather dun wan anything at all..

I just wish to numb myself

I wish I could drunk everynight . I wish to numb myself . I dun wan to feel what going on this world anymore any longer . I'm tired . Wanted to hold on what I wanted is just so hard . So difficult , so tired . I need a break , a short getaway . Let me free let me get out of it .

Everything just not right.

I shed today thinking back how I have been treated by ex . It might be kinda stupid and lame . I know . But I just miss the feeling of someone kissing me on my forehead before I'm off to sleep . Someone hugging me , paddin me ,doting me . Every sweet moment I used to have . I'm no longer having it now . I feel empty , feel lonely . I know I can't be rushing . But I hate my single life . Theree is good and bad being single . But I just hate to be alone .!